okay i am better

Like I said it all takes time. I am coming to grips with Riley crossing the bridge I know it was his time and I know he was asking me to help him. Now for our buddy Craig well that still is a work in progress but I figure if he was so unhappy that death seemed the best way out that was his choice and we left behind will have to respect that choice. We can still look around the house and on our bodies and remember him and the strange little person he was.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are..
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
This person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
Things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson,
Love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant

Thank you for being a part of my life,
Whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.


I and I am sure everyone has had this even that bad reasons I am grateful for because I have learned and grown as a person to become who I am and who I am becoming. So thank you Craig for being in and touching our lives we have learned from you. I hope where every your spirit is now is finally happy and at peace.

Jan 1

Rest in Peace Sweet Boy


Okay I figured maybe this will help getting shit out of my head . The year ended on the negative. On the 28th I had to put down my sweet Riley who turned 12 in Oct. It killed me watching him go down hill health wise over Christmas. I know I did the right thing by helping him cross the Rainbow Bridge but it doesnt ease the pain only time will do that. Then last night we found out a friend of ours committed suicide , no one knows why we can only guess at this reasons. All I need to do is look at the tatts on my body or the pictures on our walls and remember him. I think the part that is frustrating is trying to wrap my head around WHY. I know that time is the answer to that too.

So the old year ends and the new year starts on those notes. Kind of sucks don't it?

I am trying to get myself into a positive frame of mind and that also is a work in progress, but on the up side I am so thankful for the friends I have who reach out and touch my heart with their support and love. I know I will get past all this crap and see things in a new light in Time the magic word it seems these days.

I wish for everyone a bright and happy future where we have time to get all the good things we deserve.